Sunday, December 25, 2005

Happy Holidays!

So, it has been a while since I last wrote, more than two months, actually. Today is December 25, o5. Merry Christmas and Happy Chanukah to all. (Is it appropriate to say Happy Kwanza and Happy Ramadan? Did I even spell these right?) Anyway, I am now officially 6 months pregnant, and I feel pretty good. I have hit some minor bumps in the road, but nothing major. I have dealt with a skin rash; a bacteria infection; constant feelings like I have to urinate, even when I don't; acid reflux; achiness; back pain; and elevated sugar which put me on a pre-diabetic diet. All that being said, I feel pretty good and I know it could be so much worse. Most importantly, as far as we can tell, the baby is well and healthy.
My husband and I are very close and connected. I couldn't have dreamed of more. I am so glad that we are so close, and he is so involved. He has come to every doctor's appointment so far. I feel the baby move often, he is still awaiting the same. He tries every day, but our little one is just not strong enough yet. (We decided not to find out the gender of the baby, we will be surprised. Any child thereafter we agreed to find out.)
Anyway, I guess I am getting a little anxious about the due date coming closer now (April 14th). I worry that we won't have everything all done ahead of time that we need to, from the nursery being finished to having all the baby supplies, to having a name that we are certain about, to feeling ready emotionally. I also worry about the labor itself, will I be strong enough physically and emotionally? I worry if I will be ready to take that time off work, and will my paperwork be all caught up, and will my clients be ready for the separation? (I am a psychotherapist, a clinical social worker). Will I be ready to separate from my clients even? But, I guess all these worries are normal, and are they not consuming me. My girlfriends will go with me soon to register for the baby, and the baby shower is planned for March 5th. My husband and I are slowly cleaning out the office to make it into a nursery and I know we have to shop for furniture really soon. (People tell me it can take 3 months for the furniture to come in once it is ordered. But as long as we have the bassinet at first, then I am sure we will be fine). Mostly, I am happy and excited and enjoying being pregnant. People ask me all the time if I am ready to be done with pregnancy yet, and the answer is truly no. I love the feeling of being so connected with my baby, and knowing that he or she is growing and getting healthy, just as she or he needs to. I worry about going into labor prematurely, so I don't want to rush this. I really don't care if I have a boy or a girl, I just want a completely healthy baby, and I will feel soooo happy.
Well, there are plenty more topics that I can write about, but this is by far the most significant in my life, so I will write more another time. Happy Holidays to all!

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